So I'm going to try this again. But this time for a much different purpose. The past couple of years I tried twice to do a blog but I did not keep up with it. I really did it so others could read my writing and I'd feel like a real writer. As I read some of the things I wrote I think its actually pretty good. But this time the idea is to write so twenty years from now Daniel or Devin might be interested. And 40 years from now maybe my future grandchildren might be interested. I know I would have loved to read a blog created by my dad when he was my age. So this is for the future and no one else. If anyone stumbles upon it nothing is secret so happy reading.
Yesterday was an eventful day. I went to Dr. Bradfield to get a throat video strobe. I have not had my normal speaking voice now for over 5 weeks. What I have now is a speaking voice which is about the same volume as a whisper. The test came back negative. The next step is doing surgery where they put me out and then take pictures behind my vocal chords. I've been telling the doctor it feels like no air is getting through. Jenny came up with a good idea to see a Pulmonary doctor. I'll go ahead with the surgery but we may be barking up the wrong tree. Any way you look at it I'm frustrated beyond all imagination. It seems after 5 weeks I should have some answers instead of more questions. This must be happening for a reason. I firmly believe God has a plan for all of us. I've had too many things happen in my life that logically should not have happened. So maybe God wants me to take take this time to reassess something in my life. Honestly I just don't know. What I do know is my voice needs to come back so my life can go back to normal.
Last night was New Years Eve. All I've got to say is goodbye 2010. All things considered 2010 was not a very good year. I was in the hospital with chest pains and found out my cholesterol was way too high. I guess one positive way to look at that episode was it was a wake up call. At times work was a struggle and rarely fun. Then 5 weeks of just about no voice. In between I really could not remember too many very happen memories. Nothing like going out west or any trips. I do recall one time when we went to the Gulf. The beach was absolutely beautiful. Also we had a balcony that overlooked the Gulf. It was kind of like the Disney cruise. I remembered seating out there reading The Rembrandt Affair that just came out. Also Daniel brought his die cast cars and had the initial Island Inn Shootout. Even though he is 13 years old and now as much as I'd hate to admit taller than me he is still much more like a little boy than a teenager. Maybe keeping this blog will help me remember those little happy memories that just so easily fade away.
As News Years Eve's went it was really quiet. Jenny spend alot of time researching on the computer that might be wrong with me. Devin was doing mostly Devin things like drawing, making his lego movies or whatever else he feels like doing. Me and Daniel watched the Islanders shock the Red Wings in Detroit. The Isles scored an OT goal to win 4-3. So this week they beat Detroit and Pittsburgh. Daniel loves watching hockey with me. And I love watching games with him. Though the game was good but not fantastic maybe watching will become one of his New Years Eve memories . New Years Eve will always be a very special night because I met Jenny on New Years Eve going into 1990. I have often thought how meeting her at a bar in the Bronx on New Years Eve makes no logical sense. God must have put each of us in the room. She joked we celebrated by me getting a video strobe. Honestly after the test I was out of it for most of the day. Also when I worked at Pleasure Island New Years Eve was the biggest night of the year so I almost always worked. We always thought it would be nice if I did not have to work. While watching the show from Times Square I asked Jenny how much would they have to pay you to be in the middle of that drunken madness. She said she could not do it for any amount. As for me I'd do it for $1000. About my only other New Years Eve memories were, New Years Eve 1980 I spent with Mark Jacobs playing table top hockey. He was really good. I remember hearing the song American Pie for the first time as they counted down the top hits of the 1970s. And also I recall a few New Years Eves where one channel in New York played Help and Hard Days Night. Other than that no New Years Eves were at all memorable.
Upon learning what a New Years Resolution was Devin asked everyone what there's was. He said his would not lose his temper, Daniel's was to keep eating well and to bolas 10 minutes before he eats, I told Devin mine will be to smile more. I know over the past 5 weeks I have not been smiling much. And with a resolution in mind I think I'll try to do better keeping up with old friends. So now I think I'll send Mark Jacobs a quick message.
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